Emoblog/2019/11/30/I need to talk, cont.

I can't really tell the story of what happened on Monday without explaining a lot of background; I can't tell the story of what happened with Juniper without telling a lot of Harena's story. ...and the more I think about it, the more this draws in all kinds of stuff – all kinds of issues, all kinds of pieces of my experience.

It involves:

• abuse
  • by a loved one
  • effects of
  • of loved ones
• asexuality
• chases
• death
• escapes
• fencing (verbal)
• fighting (textual)
• giants
• grief
• hate (imagined)
• hunters
• lies
• loss
• marriage
• mental illness
• miracles
• pain
• parenting
  • as a parent
  • as offspring
• passion
• poison
• polyamory
• rejection sensitive dysphoria
• revenge
• snakes
• spiders
• sports
• suicide
• swordfights
• torture
• true love

I don't know if I'm equal to the task, but I'll see what I can do.

Also... an awful lot of what comes to mind is stuff that I'm reluctant to talk about because Harena might find them triggering. How do you talk about still deeply caring for someone who repeatedly hurt someone else you deeply care about?

(finished 12/01)