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<nowiki>*</nowiki>It's a new reality which is really just the old reality after falling down from trying to reach a better one. The worst part is that I thought I'd reached it safely.
<nowiki>*</nowiki>It's a new reality which is really just the old reality after falling down from trying to reach a better one. The worst part is that I thought I'd reached it safely.
==08:55==
I thought maybe I was just being melodramatic when I said I didn't know who I'd be without her. So silly. I'll just be who I was ''before'' her, of course.
Reality: I don't know who I am now.

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08:42

I've come full circle to feeling this again, 35 yeas later.

Every time I try to resign myself to the new-old reality*, I come back to the thought that I've made a terrible mistake, that I shouldn't resign myself.

But I don't know what I could really feasibly do.

So many things are triggers now. Sitting down at keyboard, looking at Discord, looking at my phone.

It happened yesterday evening, so I guess this is Day 1.

Have I hit the bottom yet, or am I still falling?

*It's a new reality which is really just the old reality after falling down from trying to reach a better one. The worst part is that I thought I'd reached it safely.

08:55

I thought maybe I was just being melodramatic when I said I didn't know who I'd be without her. So silly. I'll just be who I was before her, of course.

Reality: I don't know who I am now.